7/01/2007 noone but me from URL @ 4:20 AM
People are always expecting too much; of themselves and of the people around them. Which would explain why so many of us get disappointed so badly, so many times. Because when you expect too much of yourself or the people around you, it just leaves you more room to be disappointed. But then again, its these expectations that give you a reason to hold on- That there'll always be a new day after a bad one. And its also these expectations that rope you in, encapsulating you in a world of your own; delusionment. and whambhamalakazaam when you get a pinprick and you realise you were in lalaland. That's another disappoinment too. Well, i think disappoinment is a big word; and i think disappointment is a shit feeling.
& i dont think any of you who read my blog knows what im referring to, so just smile as life goes on.
- Its 4 am now and i dont know what im doing here. Today, of all days, i feel like i don't have a purpose in life. but i know that i do; just that today, i cant find the drive to work to it. I feel blurred and incoherent like as though im suffering from a hangover. Like im just a shadow, merely existing. And im not that kind of person; i cannot stand passive people for that matter. But today im that person, and i really cant place why; like as though i've been slapped in the face or smth. And i cant afford this feeling now when im supposed to be studying. Dammit la. and i just keep crying and crying and i swear i dont know why.
But i know that im a strong kid, and by tomorrow i'll be fine. Still, I think i'll spend tomorrow at ECP. no strings attached. Why can't life be easy?
so just smile as life goes on. yes nish, i did think of you :D (but the smiles are only online. thank you though, i realllllly love you.)